Sorry seems to be the hardest word

I haven't updated this in a long time.

I wish I could come up with some extravagant excuse as to why I haven't, however the truth is that it's due to laziness and nothing else.

So here I am, committing to blog my journey even more in the hope of motivating myself as well as others.


I believe an update is due...


So since starting my Slimming World journey again for the millionth time, I finally achieved my 1 stone award!

I also achieved my silver body magic!

This brings my total weight loss so far to 1st 1.5lb. I've noticed a lot of changes in my body as well and having compared to my start measurements, I've lost nearly 3" off my waist. 

Now, after all those positive achievements, now it's time to talk about how things are.

In all honesty, not too brilliant. I haven't been to group for 2 weeks and genuinely feel incredibly demotivated.

I haven't been counting my syns, my meals barely have any free food and I'm sat here wondering where all that positive motivated energy has disappeared too.

It's hard to be able to forgive yourself sometimes, and this is something that I find incredibly hard to do. As soon as I slip up, I find myself very quickly back into a world of junk food to try and 'numb' the feelings of disappointment and disgust at how my body has become. 

The one thing I'm learning from this journey is that it's okay to slip up. It's okay to have a gain at weigh in, and that group will always be there to welcome me back after a few weeks of sulking and hiding away.

I've spent this morning working out meal plans for the next few days making sure to up my speed food intake and limit my syns (31 syns is not acceptable in a day Paige!). I've also made a commitment to myself to go to group on Monday and stick to this as best as I can.

I have 63 days until my holiday to Japan and I'm 15st 7lb. If I could shift at least another stone and a half in the next 60 days, I know I'll feel a lot better within myself and fit into my clothes a lot better.